So World Mental Health Day was yesterday but I didn’t quite have time to post anything on here.
Here is my story. I started with anxiety and depression from a very young age. I was a very disclosed and shy child, which lead me to not have many friends. My family was broken. My dads side disliked my mums side (still do) and it was hard for me to understand. My parents haven’t always had a healthy relationship and I’ve seen the unhealthy side. I’ve been bullied and beaten to a pulp before because “I was weird and ugly” by bullies at my school. This happened when I was about 10 years old and will never ever forget.
I was the kindest, most generous person once upon a time. I wouldn’t hurt a fly or say a bad word to anybody or, about anybody. But got it drilled out of me for a while because bullies told me and shown me that being nice wasn’t the way to be. This happened all the way through school, primary and secondary and hardly anybody did anything about it. I would’ve but I was too scared back then. I told my teachers, I told my “friends.” Only a select few stuck by me and I will give them all my gratitude till the day I die for sticking up for me and standing by me.
Today, and over the past two years whilst trying to forget the town I live in and the school I went to; the school that ruined my life. My life has become a lot better.
I was once surrounded by toxic and vile people. People who wouldn’t leave you alone because you had a spot on your face or because you were a little different. I will NEVER forget who they are and what they did to me. But, I will forgive them. Being away from those people has made me realise that the world is great and people are great, and they change. Because of the positive people in my life; my friends and family; I can now look at how beautiful life and the world is.
I still suffer with anxiety. I still get sad sometimes about how the way things was. But I feel as though I’m building as a person every single day. I’m becoming a wonderful young woman and I’m proud of myself.
Thank you for reading.
Niamh x
